Floating

Have you ever felt like you were floating through your life? It is a strange feeling to feel like you aren't "all" there. I have had a hard time lately. Largely because I would love to go back to work and finish school. Unfortunately the cost of child care makes it unpractical to do that right now. I can take courses at night, but the working mom thing doesn't seem to work for our family. At my daughter's school I know moms who work and moms that stay home. I have to say the stay-at-home moms are less stressed and more in tune to what is happening at the school at any given time.
The working moms seem to have more energy and alot more to talk about!

Is there a happy medium or is it a catch-22 that you have to pick sides of and be happy with your choice?

I went back to work a few months ago. I loved it, the people, the energy, the feeling of being useful. But the household went FLOP! So I am back home and will remain so until my son is in school full time.

Here's what gets me....I enjoyed feeling useful. There is so much to do at home and many areas to be involved in through the school, why have I stopped feeling useful in those areas?