Monday, March 22, 2010

Floating

Have you ever felt like you were floating through your life? It is a strange feeling to feel like you aren't "all" there. I have had a hard time lately. Largely because I would love to go back to work and finish school. Unfortunately the cost of child care makes it unpractical to do that right now. I can take courses at night, but the working mom thing doesn't seem to work for our family. At my daughter's school I know moms who work and moms that stay home. I have to say the stay-at-home moms are less stressed and more in tune to what is happening at the school at any given time.
The working moms seem to have more energy and alot more to talk about!

Is there a happy medium or is it a catch-22 that you have to pick sides of and be happy with your choice?

I went back to work a few months ago. I loved it, the people, the energy, the feeling of being useful. But the household went FLOP! So I am back home and will remain so until my son is in school full time.

Here's what gets me....I enjoyed feeling useful. There is so much to do at home and many areas to be involved in through the school, why have I stopped feeling useful in those areas?

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I can really relate to this.

I didn't go back to school or work for a long time after having my boys for all the same reasons. I'm back now and, luckily for me, my boys love their daycare. I don't know what I would have done if their transition to afterschool care hadn't gone as well as it did.

I can also relate to feeling less than satisfied with the work involved and home-making. It's important work and it's challenging work, but it's also work that's undervalued by society and only really noticeable when it's not getting done.

Hang in there... Your kids will soon be at an age where they're in school for most of the day and daycare will only be for those few hours after school... or maybe you'll even be able to find a job that allows you the flexibility to be home in the late afternoons after school.

And in the meantime, just know that you're not alone in your feeling - I felt exactly the same way.

HUGS!

Shionge said...

Hey Saralynn, I am so happy to see you at my blog after such a long time, what a pleasant surprise :)

I understand what you mean, I have to work full time and I am thankful my mom-in-law helped to look after my kids when they were much younger.

Whether you are working of stay hom Mom you are always useful and adding value to your children and family :D